When we don't feel justified

Results results results.......
They say that as long as you work hard...you are going to be just fine.

I have been hearing this phrase since young and it is not really true...

We just want to feel justified for the things we work for...however...the funny thing is that life always shortchange you....is the first semester and the results shows the total opposite. People who don't work as hard as those who does...eventually got a higher grade which....is •argh*

From there, we start blaming everything around us and even hate life itself.....we all need to feel justified.

Personally, putting all your hopes in Go d is the best. GOD NEVER FAILS! How can your plans fail if he doesn't?!

Desean....
Continue working super hard! Aim for As

When will you ever know?

17 now....
being in a brand new environment....
exposed to many new things and people...
one year older...
am I right to say I should open up to more of the things around me.
sometimes I wonder.....
when is the right time to go for it?
who is it?
where should it be?
how it should be?
do i have to follow a certain standard?
or should I just try it?
no harm right?

Maybe is the influence of the older peeps that got me thinking about it......
and question to myself
when will one know that he/she will be ready for a brand new responsibility ?
I don't think that anyone can answer to that themselves....
is a process every single one have to go through....
if the opportunity present itself....
I guess is a GO for me.

When will you ever know?
you just have to believe in yourself.

If you ask me....

Q: HOW WAS SECONDARY SCHOOL LIKE FOR YOU.

A: I HATED 90% OF EVERYTHING!

Q:DO YOU MISS YOUR SECONDARY SCHOOL

A: NO! NOT EVEN STUDYING IN CLASS WITH THE PEOPLE.

有了钱你的烦恼一半就没了

Sigh......ever since that pencil box thing....money has become a big concern for me. So many things to pay back and my commitment....been living on so little each week...on the other hand...maybe my spending is a little crazy...but still...I wish i can have more pocket money.

Don't wanna keep asking my parents for money, I want start giving tuitions and earn some extra pocket money. Hopefully I can find one student soon and start teaching! :)

2012 so far.....

School so far has been stressful....
Yet fulfilling....pretty glad that I have made this choice....got to meet many people from all walks of life...feeling so motivated by the different people.

Went back to Assumption to collect award...the moment I entered the hall....I just felt very disappointed. I didn't leave a legacy as I wanted...more of a place where my dreams were broken and shattered....if I were to meet my 13 year old self...he will also be shock to see the me today. I am really glad that all the friends that I have made over the four years is more than enough to cover up for the hurt that I have brought upon myself.

We all make different decisions in life...regardless of what we choose, we will always have regrets someway or another. But what really matters is...how you make the best out of the worst that is with you.

A new beginning.....

Tomorrow is my official first day in SIM!!!
been excited and nervous about it for the past few weeks.....
but the day before.....
everything seems different.....
maybe is the April Fool's effect or whatever reason there may be....

Past failures starting to appear in my mind more vividly than before.....
the excruciating mental pain that I felt over my past came to haunt me.....
fear of failing....
fear of taking another big step.....
inferior.....
the nightmares of O lvl is still inside of me.....
right before a new beginning....
it has already started to pull me down.

times like this is where I have to constantly remind myself about the struggles of Life......
that no matter what....
Faith in God will surpass all obstacles.....
just another phase of life that I have to go through~
gonna be a tough 15months.....
may the Lord my God guide me through all the struggles that is coming my way or rather...me walking towards it!

nonetheless, I am still happy that I finally get to continue school after 5 months of rest!!! ( LONGEST EVER)
got to keep my faith up :)
like what Sharlene always tell me.....
confidence in yourself is simply half the battle won!!!
it will be an AWESOME YEAR!

Priorities redefine......
a constant in life.....

till the next post!!
and here is a song to entertain you

BYE!!!